At arms distance was the pain

He used to live in a dark room,
Surrounded with dark clouds
Tears falling as the rain
No one seems to heal him

He found his special place
At arms distance was the pain
His memories keep hurting
With tears in his eyes

Welcome coldness, welcome darkness
Read the fictions and fairy tales
Angels will not sing for thy melodies
No birds will fly the summer skies

Dear diary your were my friend all along
You will have my world for the world to know
Remember me when I am gone
I have always remembered you as my friend.

autumns sorrow, winters tires

Hallow darkness my old friend
we finally meet again
the silence keeps reminding me
that things have changed, it’s not the same
and then I see the light

so let’s say good bye for now
until the day we meet again
lonely birds will sing their quire
silver rains will sober the widows

autumns sorrow, winters tires
sinking ships no tidal waves
restless icons, endless tales
weeping shadows, heartless souls
wordless tombs and countless ruins

AS TEAR DROPS STARTS FALLING

HOPE LEAVES, THOUGHTS DISAPPEAR
EMOTIONS DISSOLVE IN TEARS AND CRY OUT SILENTLY
FEELINGS HIDDEN BENEATH THE ASHES WHERE YOU LEFT ME
I LAY ON THE SOIL OF NEVER RETURN, WHERE I’M FOREVER FROZEN
ENCHANTED IN A DREAM FOR MANY NIGHTMARES
AS TEAR DROPS STARTS FALLING UPON MY SECRET ENIGMA
LIFE WASHED AWAY AND THE SEDIMENTS LIE ON THE SHORE

OPEN MIND

SO I HAD TO THINK OPENLY, SOME TIMES I FEEL THAT I HAVE MADE THE WRONG DECISION BUT IF I DIDN'T MAKE THAT WRONG MOVE I MAY HAVE NOT LEARN MY LESSON. ANY WAY ITS BETTER TO LET GO OF SOMETHINGS FOR A BETTER TOMORROW. TIME ALWAYS HAS AN ANSWER TO EVERY QUESTION. SOME TIMES IT GOOD TO TAKE A BRAKE AND START THINGS FRESHLY SO THAT THE MISUNDERSTANDING AND THE CONFLICTS ARE MINIMUM.

SECOND CHANCES

I BELIEVE IN SECOND CHANCES BECAUSE PEOPLE LEARN FROM THEIR MISTAKES. BUT NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES I GIVE HER CHANCES SHE NEVER LEARNS, I HAVE NO CHOICE, I TOLD HER THAT IM NOT GOING TO TALK OR SEE HER FOR 2 DAYS YESTERDAY. BUT TODAY I MADE MY MIND AND APOLOGIZED TO HER FOR BEING HARSH ON HER AND SAID THAT IM COMING TO MEET HER. AND ASKED HER WHAT TIME SHE WILL COME FROM OFFICE. SHE VERY BRAVELY SAID 6.00PM, SO I TRUSTED HER AS ALWAYS AND TOLD HER THAT IF SHE GETS EVEN A SINGLE MINUTE LATE I LEAVE.

SO I STAYED IN OFFICE TILL 6.00PM. AT 6.10PM SHE CALLS AND ASKS ME WHERE I AM, AND I SAID THAT IM ON MY WAY HOME SINCE SHE IS LATE AND I TOLD HER THAT IM NOT VERY HAPPY, CUZ AFTER ALL WHAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY IF SHE CANT COME ON TIME TO MEET ME WHAT MORE CAN I EXPECT FROM HER. BUT ANY WAY I WENT TO PICK HER AND CALLED HER BUT SHE DIDNT ANSWER.

I GOT ANNOYED AND SHE CALLED ME WITHING 5 MINUTES I DIDNT ANSWER. THEN WHEN I CALLED HER AT 6.35 SHE TELLS ME THAT SHE'S ON THE ROAD. WHEN I ASKED WHY SHE DIDN'T CALL SHE SAID THAT HER PHONE FELL ON THE GROUND AND WAS NOT WORKING. THE TYPICAL EXCUSE SHE ALWAYS GIVES. I HAVE NO MORE TO SAY, IT'S BEST NOT TO THINK TOO MUCH CUZ IT'LL ONLY RUIN MY SELF. IM CONTINUING ON MY PROJECT AND DOWNLOADED SOME PROGRAMMING APPLICATIONS AND GOING TO START ON IT.

WHEM IN EMOTIONALLY HURT

WHEN A PERSON IS EMOTIONALLY HURT THEY TAKE HARSH DECISIONS. I KNOW THIS BECAUSE I GO THOROUGH THIS EVERY DAY . I TRY TO OVER COME THIS EVERY DAY BUT SHE DOES SOMETHING TO MAKE IT WORST.

TRUE LOVE ONLY HAPPENS WITH THAT SPECIAL PERSON AND ONLY ONCE.IM REALLY SORRY FOR ALL THE HARSH WORDS I HAVE USED ON YOU, TRUST ME I NEVER MEANT A SINGLE THING I SAID, WORDS JUST CAME BECAUSE I WAS ANGRYHOPE YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I MEAN, YOU ARE EVERY THING TO ME AND I DON'T WANT TO LOOSE YOU

BYE FOR NOW

I FEEL THAT I HAVE BECOME LESS IMPORTANT AND SO I HAD TO MAKE A DECISION, I KNOW IT'S HARD FOR BOTH BUT I HAVE NO OTHER OPTION. I HAVE TRIED EVERY POSSIBLE  WAY BUT ENDED UP WITH NO RESULTS.
IM REALLY SORRY, I REALLY AM. TRUTH IS I CAN'T TAKE MY MIND OFF HER, SHE IS IN EVERY SINGLE CELL OF ME. TACK GOOD CARE OF YOUR SELF MY LOVE. I'LL SEE YOU AND TALK TO YOU SOON. HOPE I WILL BE IMPORTANT TO YOU WHEN WE MEET AGAIN.

NO REGRETS BUT FEEL SORRY FOR MY BEHAVIOR

WELL ITS ANOTHER DAY BUT NO IN PARADISE, I COULDN'T BLOGG THESE FEW DAYS, SO TODAY I THOUGHT OF WRITING SOMETHING. TODAY (21 JAN 2011)MORNING I HAD A SHORT TELEPHONE CONVERSATION WITH MY GIRL FRIEND. I DOWNLOADED A MOVIE "THE STRANGERS" AND WATCHED IT, ITS PRETTY LAME I WOULD SAY. I DIDN'T GET A SINGLE CALL FROM MY GIRL FRIEND FROM MORNING. I HAD MY LUNCH AND TOOK A WASH AND GOT READY TO GO FOR MY CLASSES. THEN MY GF CALLED AND SHE WAS TALKING TO SOME OTHER PERSON AT THE SAME TIME SO I HUNG UP THE PHONE. AFTER ABOUT  30 MINUTES SHE CALLS ME AND ASKS WHY I HUNG UP ON THE PHONE, AND IT PISSED ME OFF SO I SHOUTED AT HER AND I GOT SO ANGRY I DIDN'T TALK TO HER. SHE SAID SHE WANTED TO SEE ME BUT I DIDN'T SHOW ANY INTEREST. I WENT TO HER CLASS AND GAVE HER A SMALL PRESENT I HAD AND CAME BACK, I DIDN'T EVEN GAVE HER A HUGE WHICH I USUALLY DO. AFTER MY CLASSES WERE DONE I CAME TO GET A BUS BUT I DIDN'T CALL MY GF THEN I GOT A CALL FROM HER. FOR SOME REASON I HAD THE FEELING THAT SHE HAD NOT GONE HOME AND WAS WAITING TO MEET ME. BUT I WAS TOO STUBBORN TO CALL HER. WHEN SHE CALLED I SAID THAT IM GOING HOME BUT SHE ASKED ME TO STAY SO I DID. WE CAME TOGETHER BUT I DIDN'T TALK WITH HER. SHE WANTED TO GO SOMEWHERE AND TO TALK BUT I REFUSE TO. I DROPPED HER AND CAME HOME AND NOW GOING TO START MY ASSIGNMENT. FEEL THAT I HAVE BEEN BIT ROUGH ON HER.

NATURE RETURS

MAN KIND HAVE TAKEN EVERY THING FROM MOTHER NATURE AND HAS GIVEN NOTHING BACK IN RETURN BUT DESTRUCTION
.NOW ITS THE NATURE ERA WHERE MAN KIND WILL GET IN RETURN. ITS NOT A PLEASANT SIGHT TOUGHITS BEEN RAINING FOR 2 MONTHS AND NO SUN SEEN IN DAYS. ITS 18 DEGREES CELSIUS IN COLOMBO AND ITS THE COLDEST RECORDED. WHAT CAN I SAY PEOPLE IT IS WHAT YOU HAVE DONE TO NATURE, ITS WHAT YOUR ANCESTORS HAVE DONE. NOW YOU SUFFER  I GUESS THE IDEOLOGY ABOUT 2012 IS SOMEWHAT TRUE. ALL THE FOOD PRODUCING LOCATION HAVE BEEN AFFECTED WITH PROLONG RAIN AND FLOODS AND FOOD IS LIMITED HOPE MAN KIND LEARN AT LEAST NOW BECAUSE OUR SPECIES NEVER LEARNS

CONFIDENCE, TRUST, HOPE

IN LIFE A PERSON HAS TO MAKE DECISIONS EITHER RIGHT OR WRONG DEPENDING ON THE SITUATION. BUT MOST OF US TAKE DECISIONS JUST TO SAFE OUR SELVES. JUST TO GIVE A SMALL EXAMPLE , A CHILD WHEN THROWN UP BY THE FATHER OR MOTHER THE CHILD SMILES, THAT'S THE TRUST. WHEN YOU GO TO SLEEP YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHETHER YOU WILL WAKE UP BUT YOU HAVE PLANES FOR THE NEXT DAY, THAT'S HOPE.
MOST OF PEOPLE LAKE CONFIDENCE, TRUST, HOPE, FAITH, AND HONOR. HENCE THE SOCIETY IS A GARBAGE PIT. SAD TO SEE THE ONCE DOMINATED MAN KIND HAVE LOST ITS DIGNITY AND EVERY THING KNOWN TO ITS PRIDE.

<P><12.25> I WAS GATHERING IDEAS FOR A WHILE, THEN I CAME ACROSS A BREAK THROUGH IDEA WHERE FACEBOOK CAN GROW MASSIVELY, BUT I DON'T HAVE A WAY TO COMMUNICATE IT TO THE FACEBOOK DEVELOPERS, BUT IF I GET A WAY TO GET IN TOUCH WITH THEM I WOULD BE DELIGHTED TO SHARE MY IDEAS WITH THEM, WHO KNOWS I MIGHT BE CALLED TO JOIN THEM IF IM LUCKY ENOUGH<P>.

<P><12.20> IM IN OFFICE TODAY, BUT STILL THINKING ABOUT BECOMING AN ENTREPRENEUR, LEARNING COMPUTER PROGRAMING IS STILL BOILING INSIDE ME BUT I HAVE MANAGED TO CONTROL MY FEELINGS BEFORE I GO CRAZY (PSYCHO). I WANT TO START STUDYING COMPUTER SCIENCE SOON BUT HAVE TO FINISH MY ONGOING STUDIES FIRST, TO FIND SOME MONEY<P>

MOTIVATION VS OBSESSION

JANUARY 3RD 2011, I DOWNLOADED THE MOVIE THE SOCIAL NETWORK IT REALLY INSPIRED ME ABOUT HOW I SHOULD WORK TOWARDS MY TARGET OF STARTING UP MY OWN BUSINESS AND BECOMING FAMOUS. I KNOW THAT SOMEDAY I'M GOING TO ACHIEVE IT. WHEN I WATCHED IT FOR THE FIRST TIME I WAS NOT THAT IMPRESSED (MAY BE BECAUSE I GOT FEW CALLS AND WAS NOT FOCUSING) BUT I WATCHED IT AGAIN IN THE EVENING AND IT REALLY STRUCK ME IN THE HEAD, AND I WAS THINKING FOR A LONG TIME AND I GOT THIS CRAZIEST IDEA OF STARTING UP MY OWN WEBSITE. I MUST SAY EVEN I'M IMPRESSED BY THE THOUGHTS THAT CAME TO MY MIND. I CALLED MY GIRL FRIEND AND TOLD HER ABOUT IT AND SHE WAS PRETTY IMPRESSED. SHE ASKED ME TO TAKE A PIECE OF PAPER AND NOTE DOWN ALL THAT COMES TO MY MIND CUZ IT'LL BE IMPORTANT. SOME CAN SAY THAT IM OBSESSED ABOUT FACEBOOK AND MARK (THE CREATOR OF FACEBOOK), BUT I MUST SAY THAT IM NOT A VERY BIG FAN OF FACEBOOK BUT I ADMIRE THE CREATIVITY AND THE CONCEPT OF CONNECTING PEOPLE AND I WOULD ALSO SAY THAT ITS THE MOTIVATION I GOT AFTER WATCHING THE MOVIE. MOTIVATION AND OBSESSION ARE TWO DIFFERENT MEANINGS. NOW IM GATHERING MY IDEAS TO START UP MY OWN BUSINESS WHICH ONE DAY I KNOW THAT IT'LL HELP MANKIND FOR A BETTER LIVING. IT'S NOT GOING TO BE TAKING MANY YEARS TILL THE DAY OF MY ACHIEVEMENTS BECOME TO BLOSSOM AND WHEN THAT DAY COMES THOSE WHO DEPRIVED ME AND MY CREATIVITY WILL SHOW ME RESPECT. MY IDEA OF STARTING MY OWN WEBSITE IS BOILING DEEP INSIDE ME AND I CANT WAIT TO START ON IT.

HENCEFORTH: ASSHOLES

HENCEFORTH: ASSHOLES: "SOME PEOPLE THINGS BECAUSE YOU ARE NICE TO THEM, LISTENS TO WHAT THEY SAY AND AGREES ON WHAT THEY SAY IS BECAUSE WE ARE STUPID, PEOPLE..."

ASSHOLES

SOME PEOPLE THINGS BECAUSE YOU ARE NICE TO THEM,  LISTENS TO WHAT THEY SAY AND AGREES ON WHAT THEY SAY IS BECAUSE WE ARE STUPID, PEOPLE THINK THAT WE ARE A BUNCH OF PUPPETS WHO'S PLAYING THEIR ROLE PLAY. FUCK THEM AND FUCK EVERY PERSON WHO HAS THOUGHT THAT WAY. THERE ARE ASSHOLES WHO PRETEND TO BE YOUR FRIEND TILL THEY GET WHAT THEY WANT AND THEN THEY GO AND DUMP YOU OR BETRAY YOU, WELL AFTER ALL WE LIVE IN A WORLD MOUNTED WITH GREED, HATE, AND PATHETIC RELIGIONS TO SAY WHAT WE HAVE TO DO AND IDIOTS TO GUIDE US TO ACHIEVE THEIR PERSONAL GOALS. WELL FUCK THEM ALL, I'M PROUD THAT I'M NOT ANY ONES PUPPET AND I'M A FREE INDIVIDUAL WHO HAS A OPEN MIND. AS THE SAYING GOES "WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND". AND WHEN IT DOES THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN ASSHOLES BETTER WATCH OUT CUZ THERE AIN'T GONNA BE ANY THING TO HELP THEM. WATCH OUT