At arms distance was the pain

He used to live in a dark room,
Surrounded with dark clouds
Tears falling as the rain
No one seems to heal him

He found his special place
At arms distance was the pain
His memories keep hurting
With tears in his eyes

Welcome coldness, welcome darkness
Read the fictions and fairy tales
Angels will not sing for thy melodies
No birds will fly the summer skies

Dear diary your were my friend all along
You will have my world for the world to know
Remember me when I am gone
I have always remembered you as my friend.

autumns sorrow, winters tires

Hallow darkness my old friend
we finally meet again
the silence keeps reminding me
that things have changed, it’s not the same
and then I see the light

so let’s say good bye for now
until the day we meet again
lonely birds will sing their quire
silver rains will sober the widows

autumns sorrow, winters tires
sinking ships no tidal waves
restless icons, endless tales
weeping shadows, heartless souls
wordless tombs and countless ruins

AS TEAR DROPS STARTS FALLING

HOPE LEAVES, THOUGHTS DISAPPEAR
EMOTIONS DISSOLVE IN TEARS AND CRY OUT SILENTLY
FEELINGS HIDDEN BENEATH THE ASHES WHERE YOU LEFT ME
I LAY ON THE SOIL OF NEVER RETURN, WHERE I’M FOREVER FROZEN
ENCHANTED IN A DREAM FOR MANY NIGHTMARES
AS TEAR DROPS STARTS FALLING UPON MY SECRET ENIGMA
LIFE WASHED AWAY AND THE SEDIMENTS LIE ON THE SHORE

OPEN MIND

SO I HAD TO THINK OPENLY, SOME TIMES I FEEL THAT I HAVE MADE THE WRONG DECISION BUT IF I DIDN'T MAKE THAT WRONG MOVE I MAY HAVE NOT LEARN MY LESSON. ANY WAY ITS BETTER TO LET GO OF SOMETHINGS FOR A BETTER TOMORROW. TIME ALWAYS HAS AN ANSWER TO EVERY QUESTION. SOME TIMES IT GOOD TO TAKE A BRAKE AND START THINGS FRESHLY SO THAT THE MISUNDERSTANDING AND THE CONFLICTS ARE MINIMUM.

SECOND CHANCES

I BELIEVE IN SECOND CHANCES BECAUSE PEOPLE LEARN FROM THEIR MISTAKES. BUT NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES I GIVE HER CHANCES SHE NEVER LEARNS, I HAVE NO CHOICE, I TOLD HER THAT IM NOT GOING TO TALK OR SEE HER FOR 2 DAYS YESTERDAY. BUT TODAY I MADE MY MIND AND APOLOGIZED TO HER FOR BEING HARSH ON HER AND SAID THAT IM COMING TO MEET HER. AND ASKED HER WHAT TIME SHE WILL COME FROM OFFICE. SHE VERY BRAVELY SAID 6.00PM, SO I TRUSTED HER AS ALWAYS AND TOLD HER THAT IF SHE GETS EVEN A SINGLE MINUTE LATE I LEAVE.

SO I STAYED IN OFFICE TILL 6.00PM. AT 6.10PM SHE CALLS AND ASKS ME WHERE I AM, AND I SAID THAT IM ON MY WAY HOME SINCE SHE IS LATE AND I TOLD HER THAT IM NOT VERY HAPPY, CUZ AFTER ALL WHAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY IF SHE CANT COME ON TIME TO MEET ME WHAT MORE CAN I EXPECT FROM HER. BUT ANY WAY I WENT TO PICK HER AND CALLED HER BUT SHE DIDNT ANSWER.

I GOT ANNOYED AND SHE CALLED ME WITHING 5 MINUTES I DIDNT ANSWER. THEN WHEN I CALLED HER AT 6.35 SHE TELLS ME THAT SHE'S ON THE ROAD. WHEN I ASKED WHY SHE DIDN'T CALL SHE SAID THAT HER PHONE FELL ON THE GROUND AND WAS NOT WORKING. THE TYPICAL EXCUSE SHE ALWAYS GIVES. I HAVE NO MORE TO SAY, IT'S BEST NOT TO THINK TOO MUCH CUZ IT'LL ONLY RUIN MY SELF. IM CONTINUING ON MY PROJECT AND DOWNLOADED SOME PROGRAMMING APPLICATIONS AND GOING TO START ON IT.

WHEM IN EMOTIONALLY HURT

WHEN A PERSON IS EMOTIONALLY HURT THEY TAKE HARSH DECISIONS. I KNOW THIS BECAUSE I GO THOROUGH THIS EVERY DAY . I TRY TO OVER COME THIS EVERY DAY BUT SHE DOES SOMETHING TO MAKE IT WORST.

TRUE LOVE ONLY HAPPENS WITH THAT SPECIAL PERSON AND ONLY ONCE.IM REALLY SORRY FOR ALL THE HARSH WORDS I HAVE USED ON YOU, TRUST ME I NEVER MEANT A SINGLE THING I SAID, WORDS JUST CAME BECAUSE I WAS ANGRYHOPE YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I MEAN, YOU ARE EVERY THING TO ME AND I DON'T WANT TO LOOSE YOU

BYE FOR NOW

I FEEL THAT I HAVE BECOME LESS IMPORTANT AND SO I HAD TO MAKE A DECISION, I KNOW IT'S HARD FOR BOTH BUT I HAVE NO OTHER OPTION. I HAVE TRIED EVERY POSSIBLE  WAY BUT ENDED UP WITH NO RESULTS.
IM REALLY SORRY, I REALLY AM. TRUTH IS I CAN'T TAKE MY MIND OFF HER, SHE IS IN EVERY SINGLE CELL OF ME. TACK GOOD CARE OF YOUR SELF MY LOVE. I'LL SEE YOU AND TALK TO YOU SOON. HOPE I WILL BE IMPORTANT TO YOU WHEN WE MEET AGAIN.